Monday, December 3, 2007
I have reached a point where I just think, "wow. i can't do this anymore."
This isn't the first time I've reached this point. But, on this tapestry, today, it has become a VERY strong urge to overcome. I want - very badly, mind you - to do ANYTHING but be at the loom weaving. I would scrub toilets, mop floors, do laundry, Christmas shop for Pete's sake!
At this point, only dogged determination keeps me passing the weft through the warp. Only commitment to the deadline makes me keep looking through the warp threads to try to see what to do next. Only teeth-grinding stubbornness makes me pick up another ball of yarn and wind yet another butterfly (my six-thousandth today). I cannot let myself think that, after I do this for several more hours today, I'll have to do it again all day tomorrow, and the next, and the next...
I will weave. I will finish. I will walk away from this computer and back to the loom. Sometimes stubbornness is a Good Thing.